9/23/20

Taking the AI everyday. Definitely feeling hotness often. A number of times a day. Mostly when I'm stressed or anticipating something coming up. It's manageable. Also, having trouble falling asleep. I feel like I'm starting to fall asleep and then I get jarred out of it and have to start all over again getting back into sleep mode. I've been smoking weed lately in the evening to help with that. 

9/1/2020

 Received my second Lupron shot on August 19.  At that time, I picked up the Aromatasin Inhibitors (sp?) at Kaiser pharmacy. I felt like my doctor should have been clearer with me about when to start taking the AI drug. Anyway, now I've been taking those pills as well since August 19. One pill per day taken in the evening. With my paxil and iron pills. That day I felt what I thought was maybe a hot flash or two. And the next day too. But not sure if it actually was a hot flash or just in my head. Today and yesterday, I'm feeling some cramps in my lower abdomen. Not sure if this is related to some type of ovulation. I thought I wasn't supposed to be ovulating. Not sure. Also after not exercising for a long time, I'm trying to do some exercise again on the reg.

Today 8/5/2020

We returned from camping on Tuesday to Ostrander Lake in Yosemite. I got my period on about Thursday, July 30. Which is weird bc I thought when I got the Lupron shot that that would stop my period from happening. Anyway, I ended up getting it just as we went camping and it was heavier than it's usually been. So I just had to use toilet paper the whole time bc I didn't have anything else. We had a great time. Kids were amazing and very resilient. Last night (after a day of doing a million things including checking in with work, a PFC meeting, and baking with Zadie), after dinner and after a couple glasses of wine I had horrible heartburn. I haven't had it like that since I was pregnant and can only chalk it up to the wine. But still not sure. It mostly went away - but I still felt it a bit this morning. It's mostly gone now.

Today

7/22/20. First day after first shot of Lupron. Feeling good. Same as yesterday so no big changes to report. My arm/wrist/hand still hurt - but that was happening before the shot.Trying to rest it by not using my phone as much. But will seek a referral for an OT if it continues or gets worse. Kiddos are in camp (Z at the JCC; B at SF Giants Camp). So I have time to myself. Walked around the hill 3x = 3.4 miles. Will keep trying to do the walking everyday. It's good for me.

First day of Lupron 7/21/20

First Lupron shot today. Last day of pre-ovary-working me. I feel good. I am forever grateful to my ovaries for providing me with two beautiful children. I am so grateful for all that I am able to do with the body I have today. After this shot I will be different. But hopefully not deterred from living my life in an energetic vivacious way. That is what I hope. That I can wake up most mornings and look forward to the day ahead and be eager//excited about all that I am able to do and feel. I love my body and who I am. And I hope that will continue despite this treatment. And maybe I will grow a beard and maybe I won't.